Confined

I've made the same mistake so many times
You cannot pardon me
I have a terrible habit of breaking down
It has not hardened me

There are some things I need to give up
If I am to move forward at all
But I still have not done so
I proceeded to fall
Into a stupor
That was not so super

I can remember a time that was better
I did not interpret to the letter
I just did my thing
And let the truth ring
I was not bounding my self in chains
For some future prospect
That never came to fruition

And had I remained vigilant
Had I remained focused
I would not have went back into debt
I would not have to go through this
Again

I cannot play the victim
For I was conscious of my actions
All the while deleting
Any true sense of satisfaction

Except for when I express myself
Then I do feel golden
I need to start to focus on my health
So my future is not stolen

And I know this is not my greatest work
No not even close
It's just something I had to express
That's not really verbose

But my truly greatest work
Is stuck within my mind
It was as open as a book
Now it feels confined