Every month we step into comes with a lot of targets that makes us to feel fully charged to ride through that month 😔 but then half way through we have already rearranged our targets because we look at them believing they are farfetched and impossible to accomplish because of the look of things at that point.

But then my question is where has all the energy and eagerness gone to within a short while and why these sudden change of plan?

No one walks into a new month or year without any expectations even if it is to achieve good or bad there has to be an expectation, a target that we look at in our minds and tell ourselves surely I will get there if I put in my all but then we realize that our all isn't enough to get us there.

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The year came with so much mixed feelings for me, currently carrying out my national assignment as a youth corp member in a state far not an environment I never envisioned my self going to not talk of spending a year of my life as it is the case but then it's the Clarion call and I have to obey it.

Adaptation, survival and growth

My year has moved from planing to expand my horizon to trying to survive in a place that I know no one and with a monthly stipend that could hardly sustain when I was at home but even in the midst of this I still have my life to build on and I wouldn't want the goals that had set for myself to be affected by whatever i am currently facing.

Goals at the beginning of the year

It's always important to have yearly goals cause it gives you a sense of direction so that you don't miss the path, and for the year 2025 I had several goals ranging from small short term goals to big long term goals but i will focus more on the long term goals for now.

When the year began I had my heart fixed on completely so many goals that I had carried over from year to year cause of one thing or the other, one of which was to become a certified backend software engineer at the end of the year and the plan was for me to make the most of the free time that I would get during the service year, at first it looked like it was going to be another one of those years but then I got an email from a school online that I couldn't continue with their learning program cause I couldn't afford a laptop giving me the opportunity to go again one last time without the chance of a certificate and immediately i accepted that chance i got another chance with a tech hub that gives physical training with certificates at the end of training only that I had to pay a stipend and own a laptop at that point i knew that my failure to succeed would lean more on me than them.

I am determined to work so hard just to make the money for the laptop and tuition for the physical class.

To succeed I have to meet the bigger goal, which is the ability to financially sustain myself that way I can afford things that I need not necessary what I want.

The plan at the start of the month is to get a functioning laptop before the end of the month but then with new developments the money has gone into feeding and financing my every need because of the new arrangement and the situation that warrants me financing my every need.

But with the present frame work on ground I should be able to meet up with my cohort once the month of March begins.