First kill

I killed someone today I just put her to sleep
I wish I never did it cuz now I cannot sleep

I took her life to save her from all the pain and misery
She's in a better place now her life is just a mystery

For all the pain I feel inside I pray the lord forgives me
Cuz if he doesn't I don't know what will become of me

I feel ashamed I feel so sick I throw up everytime
I hear her voice inside my head screaming all the time

There's blood on my shirt, on my hands and all over my face
I got thoughts of you touching me with a warm gentle embrace

I knew you for a short time and couldn't wait to see you
But the truth of the matter is that you will never live to

I have to live with this for the rest of my life
Sitting in that waiting room it's like I held the knife

No matter what the circumstances there's no justifications for my actions
Because despite our financial difficulties there's always adoption

I killed someone today I just put her to sleep
I wish I never did it cuz now I cannot sleep