Some last calm moments

Hi, guys!

Today is my last day that I can spend relatively calmly. Tomorrow we're going to a Junji Ito manga presentation, and nothing will fall through, and I really hope not, so the day is automatically booked. Then I'll be traveling to hospitals all week, and my surgery is on Friday. Honestly, I don't really want to even think about it, but on the other hand, it's good that at least some part of this nightmare will finally be over. It's bound to work. So I'm preparing myself to just get through this week. Today, I need to film a ton of footage so I don't have to think about it during the week and just shoot short, current videos if the need arises (and I do, because I still have books and manga to review, despite the fact that I'm not taking on almost anything new right now).

So, I'm slowly making progress toward finishing all my current work, calmly and without panic, and getting everything in a state where I can just take some time after the surgery to rest and focus on myself. Because after a while, I'll still have to keep running around to the doctors, as they continue to look for the cause of what's happening to me. This is clearly a long process.

Right now, the best I can do is maintain a philosophical attitude toward what's happening, which is what I'm trying to do. So far, it seems to be working, and I hope it continues to do so.

Have a great day, everyone!