The Uneasy Mind of a Messy Thinker: Travel to Unwind ft. Bagungon with Coconut Milk

It takes me forever to get over anything. I get upset everytime I hear something unpleasant. I can't stop feeling bad about it, and it makes me feel uneasy.

After processing the letter of financial assistance to the Mayor's Office, I decided to take a short break. Kidding aside, I thought I'd be able to help my aunt at her store, so I went to visit.

When I was about to head out, I wondered if I could ask my mother for additional money. I was doubtful she might scold me, but I still needed to try even though I had some money. Right before I asked, she said things that made me feel bad. Even though she was right, I can't stop thinking about it. It bothers me- it's lingering in my mind, this feeling of being a burden for not being able to provide for myself.

After what happened, my pride and ego couldn't take the things I heard. I thought about it a lot while I was still at home and came up with the bad idea of not taking the money. I didn't take it and just left it there. My heart was heavy and I felt like I was about to shed some tears. It wasn't my mother I felt anguished toward- it was myself, for being a failure and for not being strong to face the reality of life.

While traveling, my thoughts were strolling- thinking that adulthood is surely scary. Things and happenings flashes back to me and it seems to be painted in my mind. Because of so much thoughts on my own story I forgot I have been traveling far enough and almost reach my first stop.

I chose that day to travel because I could reduce my expenses- my aunt's partner was going to the city to buy supplies for their store and I'll be tagging along. I told them I'd be going to church first and we will meet after.

After I went to church, I wandered around looking for water and passed by the public plaza. I found a 7/11 store at the corner of the plaza, so I went inside, bought water, and got two packs of cookies for my cousin.

It was time to travel from the city to my aunt's house. The sky looked like it was going to rain, but thankfully it didn't.

I passed by some beautiful scenery, and I couldn't help feeling excited everytime I passed through this place. It was awesome. The place is even more beautiful around 5 AM and 6 PM, when the sun is about to set.

My aunt's partner and I headed to their store and they ordered batchoy, perfect for the gloomy weather.

Not long after we arrived, the rain poured. We couldn't really predict what would happen in a day.

Everything was settled, and it was almost 6 PM, so I decided to head out early to prepare for our dinner.

I cooked bagungon with coconut milk and gabi. It was delicious, thankfully! Lol. I poured a lot of water 💦 HAHAHA. I thought my cooking skills were only exclusive at home.

And everything made my day. The heavy feeling became a little bit better.

This ends my blog. Thanks for reading. Love lots 😘
--emmin◉⁠‿⁠◉msss