HEALING MY INNER CHILD

Hi everyone, hello madlang ka-hives!
It’s me again , your Angel 😇 Today I want to share with you something close to my heart , how I’m healing my inner child. Let’s begin . 💖

It all started just yesterday . I noticed that our youngest sibling’s school shoes were already broken . She still wears them every day to school, even though they have big holes . She doesn’t complain . She just wears them and continues walking like it’s nothing .

That moment made me stop and think.
I realized I’ve felt that before .
When I was a kid, we weren’t rich . Life was really hard . I also had broken shoes back then . Sometimes, I would just wear slippers to school because that’s all we had . I didn’t get to choose or wish for anything new — I just learned to accept what we had , even if it made me feel left out or sad inside .

That memory never left me . But I never talked about it before. I just kept it inside me, like a wound I forgot to take care of .

So I promised myself : this time, I’ll do something different .
This Saturday, I made a plan to make my little sister happy — and maybe, a little part of me too .

We started our day early . First, we went to the arcade . It was her first time trying so many games, and her eyes were sparkling with joy . She played the racing game, the basketball shoot, and even rode on the little motorcycle game . I just stood there, watching her laugh, and suddenly, I felt that kind of joy I missed when I was a kid .

I didn’t grow up going to arcades .
I didn’t grow up playing .
I grew up thinking about problems and being told to “grow up” early .

But that day — even just for a few hours — I was a child again . Not because I was playing, but because I was finally giving love to the part of me that never received it before .

We also tried the claw machine and guess what ? We actually won a hair clip ! We were so happy like we won something big . It was just a small prize, but the happiness in her smile felt priceless .

After that, we got hungry and went to eat her favorites : halo-halo in Mang Inasal.
She always says halo-halo is her “comfort food” and I understand why . The cold sweetness, the colors, the mix — it just makes you feel good . While eating, she was sharing stories about school, her classmates, and her dreams . She even told me she wants to treat me next time when she gets a job someday .

That moment hit me deeply . I didn’t just see a child — I saw hope, and maybe a little reflection of myself too .

Later on, we went to buy her new school shoes .
She didn’t ask for them .
She never begged .
She just smiled and thanked me . It was so simple but so pure .

While walking home, she kept looking at her shoes like they were made of gold. She said, “Ate, I feel so proud now.” That simple line melted my heart .

You know, sometimes healing doesn’t have to be big or dramatic .
Sometimes, healing means giving someone the love you once needed .
And when you do that, something inside you slowly starts to breathe again .

Healing my inner child 🤍
Through playing with my little sibling at the arcade, buying her school shoes, and giving her food she truly enjoys .

I never got to do any of these things before.
I never played .
I never had “fun” moments as a child .
But now, I’m giving it to her — the love, the joy, the comfort — and through that, I’m healing the child in me who never got the chance .

I may not change my past, but I can rewrite the story by how I love today .
And right now, I’m choosing love, play, and healing .

To all of you reading this, maybe you're also carrying wounds from your childhood . Maybe you were told to stay quiet . Maybe you didn’t feel seen, or you had to act strong all the time . I just want to tell you: it’s okay to feel . It’s okay to go back and give your younger self what they needed — even in small ways .

Be that person for someone else . Or better yet, be that person for yourself .

So that’s it for today, madlang ka-hives ! 🐝
Thank you for reading my little healing journey . I hope this inspired you, even just a bit. Life isn’t always easy, but we can always choose to heal . One moment, one memory, and one loving act at a time .

Until next time, this is your Angel 😇 — healing, loving, and growing .
Stay kind and soft, always . 🤍✨