Why Why Why

Ever listened to a song that really just explained your current mood.
This last few weeks I've been down in the dumps, been thinking about how my life is going, how I want it to go and the fact that I was thinking about that brought me down even more.
I'm a very jovial, outgoing and fun person. The kind of guy that you can't be with and not start laughing or talking, so I wondered at my long brooding moments.
My borderline depressive thoughts, my tired days and sadder nights.
My most asked question was "Why."

If there's one fact that did make me feel better, it's the fact that I'm not the only one asking myself this question.
A lot of people have gone through and/or are going through the same type of shit in one way or another.
Feeling their persona's bleeding away from them, what they viewed as their original giving way for others.
It took me a while to realize that it just might be a growing process, maybe a new awesome Seki would be born.

The song I dropped above is a perfect depiction of how I've been feeling lately, and despite the original tone of the song I love this live recording more because that's exactly how I'd sing it.
I love Shawn Mendes because of songs like these, those ones that come from the heart and are fun to sing really gets me going.
There were songs like these for me in almost all his past albums.

Coincidentally, he just came off a mental health break and this song is part of the album that he wrote after it.
A new style from his general pop and I'm curious at how his new direction in life would go.

Sorry if this post doesn't seem to have a point not destination, in actuality it doesn't, because I don't know where I'm headed yet, I guess in a way I'm curious at where I'll end up to, although I don't know why.

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