Growing so fast

After four years of breast feeding (with a small few month break when I was very pregnant with Sequoia-Rose). I have stopped...The past week and a bit I knew this was coming and basked in nuzzling my face into her hair while she’s feeding smelling her and rubbing her back and feet like I usually do when she falls a sleep having her “boobie time”. I enjoyed this time together so extremely much with my babies. It’s hard to know that it’s fully over, and I’m sure many mothers can relate to that mourning of knowing that is it this is the last time I will feed my baby with my own body. It’s such a beautiful gift to be given to be able to do so and I am so grateful to my body for all that it can do. But today when my baby girl said Mama boobie time please and I had to say no with cabbage leaves sticking out of my bra, swollen, sore and feeling feverishly hot to the touch. I wept with her, she said please I be nice. 😭 I told her that they were sick now and soon to be all gone and she told me that makes her sad. It amazes me how she can express her feelings so clearly and vocalize how she feels. ❤️ohh my wonderful little girl my heart broke today hearing you say this but we will always share cuddle times.