Past Lives

With you it is something apart, I see you when I dream, when I get up I think of you as if you were by my side all the time reminding me that you exist, that I regret having distanced myself from you, reiterating to myself that I was what I did wrong that I let go someone important, I know that you are not comparable, you are someone apart, every time I see you my heart races, I can't look you in the face because I don't know how to react when you say something to me, I don't know what my reaction would be, I always say that I will tell you many things but I really can't, I need a moment where you and I are alone, and just talk about what we can be one day. Last night I dreamed of you and without realizing it you changed my life, my friends don't understand that I find myself with your gaze, because those who want to leave and because they don't last forever, waking up and seeing that you're not here is something I can't explain but maybe I can't find you, you are my favorite memories, I've always been alone, lost, but I know that with your gaze I find myself because I know that I really love you and I will love you forever I enjoyed being able to see you even if it was for a while, ours is something inexplicable, living with many questions, not being able to forget you is something I don't like because it frustrates me. Sorry for walking away I shouldn't have and I'm sorry but you left a scar that I only ask to be able to feel your warmth again.