Lost love

I counting my loss
Bragging about my winnings
I found out it's much.
I didn't lose you,
Nor can I say I have you

We started slow as classmates then friends Watching love over take our hearts
From the taste of your smile,
To crazy little fight and denial of jealousy.

I mourn our love
I miss our course
These sleepless nights without words from you
Our souls apart, across this chasm.
My heart aches, my bones groan

Table has turned
Yet I'm still in this same sit
Maybe your love is gone
Yet mine stagnant

An adult yet naive
The last time I wasn't bold
Now I'm staring with ungrateful eyes
But I was once your love
You're still my love.

You leave my messages unread
Too busy loving someone else
What was once mine is now his
I wave goodbye to our happy memories
With open arms to happier ones

I'm still swimming to the surface of reality
How fresh memories become old,
How sweet moment becomes sour,
How happy mood becomes silence,
And a fruitful land transforms into a dessert