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When we (our mind) don't know how to receive for so long, the universe will put us in a hospital, bed ridden, and make us receive.
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And if I'm not who my mind says I am, then who am I really, beyond who I think I am?
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Can I allow myself to FEEL who I am, vs thinking myself out of situations that are an opportunity to pull me out of my destructive identity and repetitive disempowering results?- Thats FEAR, not love... thats mind/past/non-rational stubbornness, vs openness, expansion, resolution, receiving.
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We allow our own mind patterns to govern over the feeling, the body, and true self, and then argue for their validity until we are penniless, sick, miserable, and tired on all levels.
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And some of us even after all that pain, and getting the same sad results, still choose to hold onto what is so familiar, because just the thought of actually being successful and happy, and stable completely conflicts with who our mind has decided we are, and thats "dangerous".... to the ego. The mind needs to justify it's existence.
Are we our mind?...
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Whats the worst thing that will happen if I'm actually successful, happy, free, stable, and healthy? - I will "just" BE who I never knew myself to BE...
and isn't that a true transformation...