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Suppression is like a Beach Ball under Water.

Explosive Change is a result of the pressure controls being forced to counter balance the input in and as output release. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing

Day 77- Self-Betrayal

Cross-posted from Day 77- Self-Betrayal Still dealing with the fallout of self-betrayal as taking in beer that I wasn’t prepared to take in. The “interesting” thing

Day 76- Self-Abuse

Cross-posted from Day 76- Self-Abuse I had a moment yesterday where I knew I should not have participated in a certain scenario, but I did it anyway. I went into

Day 75- Redefining and Living Careful

Cross-posted from Day 75- Redefining and Living Careful Self-Allocation “Be careful” I was often told during my childhood. Rarely did I want to listen. Usually,

Day 74- Redefining and Living Careless

Cross-posted from Day 74- Redefining and Living Careless Self-Allocation Point I have within my life assigned a positive energetic charge to this word. This goes

Day 71- Exploring Self-Responsibility

Cross-posted from Day 71- Exploring Self-Responsibility I have noticed a tendency within me to want to cover all bases in terms of my self-development so that I

Who or What is Behind Carelessness?

Day 68- Why is Nobody Helping Me?

} From Day 68- Why is Nobody Helping Me?A thought came up the other day that ‘I am not getting the feedback I need/deserve from other Destonians’. I have been

Day 67- Redefining and Living Apathy (A-Path-I-See)

} From Day 67- Redefining and Living Apathy (A-Path-I-See) The process I used to explore this word can be found here: Self-Allocation For me, I can remember developing

Process Support: Don't Do Self Forgiveness from the Perspective of Shame

Process support. When doing self-forgiveness, don't feel shame or guilt. It is a tool to transcend the mind, not an indictment. For support, visit the forum:

What the F***

Where does worry come from, why am I panicking about things that may never happen ? What is it that makes me doubt that there could be a ‘positive’ outcome? I have

Guilt of behaving in a certain way

In a chat with a friend recently I commented on how in my life I have put others down in an attempt to make myself look/feel better as I perceive it. Why would I

My Journey through Chronic Pain pt.1

‘I want to rip my head off to make this pain stop.’ It’s time to get real. This is what I experience sometimes. After days and days of constant pain, of having to

Facing My Own Bull

It came up in a discussion today how many of us have patterns of holding back out of fear of judgment, that we developed from childhood, some of us having had parents

Self forgiveness blog 3: chasing money, getting in touch with myself

I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to apply myself in DIP/my process as a solution to get out of the mind and thinking I forgive myself that

Self Forgiveness blog 2: writing, self reflection and making money

In this moment, I have no idea specifically what I will write self forgiveness on, no preconceived ideas, yet I noticed a few moments ago that I havent written any

My own fox hunt

Today I witnessed a fox hunt - I knew they were still happening and I live near a prominent royal country home, where the biggest hunt in the UK was taking place,

Back to Self

It’s ok to not always have to make a point/ to be right. I noticed at times how I was tempted to kind of fight to get my point across/words heard by others, for

Drama queen 👸

I got to thinking today about drama and whether life is better or worse with drama in it? Do I create my own drama as a form of entertainment? Do I enjoy watching

Short love story...

I read a story on Facebook where a man wanted to leave his wife, because he ‘found happiness’ elsewhere - they had a fairly young daughter and in all the time they