Raw diary 06/06/19

So I figured I could start kind of a “raw diary” thing here seeing as I don’t feel so vulnerable to certain people finding this in my life (employers, landlords, family members) because they’re all so white bread that even if I told them what steem was they wouldn’t try and figure it out.

Anyways,

The past 2 months of my life have been kinda hectic. Without going into too much detail I’m pretty behind where I should be at moneywise. And a lot of my side hustles have fallen through the cracks. So I’m kind of praying for a place that can pay me a decent living wage will save my ass. I’m currently only working part time and trying to find another job that can either hire me full time or work around the other jobs hours. But so far no luck after 2 months of searching. I try to stay optimistic and just keep applying everywhere I’m capable of working (I only have my high school, so it’s not like I can get an advanced job)

But realistically I think I’m going to have to face the fact that I’m going to be short on rent and have an uncomfortable talk with my landlord. See, I’m not totally out rent, but she wants me to pay 4 months in advance every 4 months. So this time round I only have enough for 2 months rent, which in my mind is the equivalent to first and last, so I hope she’ll see that as security on her end and then there’s only 2 months left in the lease. So hopefully she will be ok with me paying her on a month to month basis for the last three payments. If that makes any sense.

Sorry this probably isn’t interesting, but it feels good to get it off my mind a little, I don’t really have anyone to talk to about this since I don’t want to worry anyone around me, or think I’m a fuckup. Even though I probably am lol whatever.

So that’s it for the first instalment. I’ll probably do one of these a day with some actual progress in my life now that there’s a little bit of a foundation there. Basically, I’m financially fucked, and the only reason to read these is to see how I’m gunna get myself out of this. So I hope at least that part will be somewhat entertaining. So if you’re still reading this, thank you! Don’t worry about me if you are, I’m not looking for sympathy, just a place to get shit off my chest without people trying to interfere with my life or worry. There’s worse things that can happen to a person! I’m just glad I’m not dying and live in a country where almost anything is possible.

Peace out peeeeeeeeps ✌️