Beaten till snapped!!

Eyes only see what they
Want to see..
How will you be
If you don't know how to be..
Don't know to breathe..

Only know how to fall back down..

Numbness will turn an addiction..
To feel again the unfelt
But not feeling at all..

What is this blankness??
Blindness??
So much in me
But speechless..
No word in existence to describe it..

Rip my eyes,
Cut my heart,
Chop my head,
Tear me apart..

I can't go through same pattern..
Without tearing apart..
Stitches be torn,
Stitched again..

Oh sweet pain,
How honest you were..
I couldn't get enough of the honesty
Till you gave me more than I could fathom..

Stabbing my flesh,
Dripping my blood,
Last thing I felt is hurt..

It is my disease..

Degenerative..

Banging wood but it never breaks,
Just in a moment it snaps,
Feeling the grace..

Took short while for it to be fixed..
Back on the same road,
Living blindly again..

Not lively again..

Beaten till snapped!!