My miniature pinscher

Does anyone out there have a min pin?
I adopted mine January of 2011. Best drunk decision EVER! He has turned into my very best friend over the years. Not only do I know him, he knows me.

If you read my intro, you’d see that I struggled with alcohol for quite some time. I’m okay at the moment. I’m almost 2 years clean. When things weren’t so great, this dog was there by my side. Through every detox session, random last minute trip to wherever I felt like flying or even just tearing through my own city like nobody’s business. Not only was he with me through some crazy adventures, he was by my side for a few break ups too. Let’s just say, this dog has my back.
And I have his too (I learned that it’s okay to start a sentence with “and”).
Whenever I think he is unwell, I do my part and take him to the vet. I feed him the best food, I take him on walks and car rides and I let him sleep in my bed. I gives him cuddles and I talk to him like he’s a human. After all, he understands me, right?

I have been thinking about him dying lately. Actually a little too much lately. When I think about it, my eyes immediately start to fill up with tears.
What am I going to do when he leaves me? (I’m assuming he will go first) even though it will be hard on me when he goes, I almost want him to leave me because I’m scared that no one will take care of him like I did.
For today, I am grateful that I have him right next to me snoring.

To everyone who lost a faithful furry friend, my heart is definitely with you ❤️