Pausing and Thinking Twice

Photo is absolutely me and mine🤭

Sitting here alone in front of the Feeds Store,
I keep thinking of my expenses; I am such a debtor;
I've been working so hard yet it's still harder to settle score,
Blessed hope I do have though, is mine forevermore.

It will be a great blessing if soon have piglets to wean,
I don't mind waking up early to have them fed and cleaned;
Praying and hoping Sweeney will soon give me thirteen,
For it's not that bad to beg God of survival as ASF threaten.

Life has always been tough but it's tougher this July,
I wasn't expecting any comfort or an ability to fly.
Just as everyone is having a hard time; I cannot lie,
that for once I did think how peaceful would it be if I could just die.

It's amazing how things happen for me to realize,
Grateful I should be if I will just prayerfully analyze;
I do have Jesus, my soul's ultimate need, I should internalize,
Worries of this world is nothing for in Him @jellyvine relies.

Authors note:
I do just freestyle with poem and just find way to rhyme it at the end. Hope you like this for more of this to come haha
I'm sorry if some comments gone unreplied for I mistakenly clicked the "mark all as read".
Thank you for the love folks.😍