Make me calm

I have to tell you. I was vibrating again today. But really. It will be a year in 25 days since I stopped vibrating and buried myself in a bottomless pit. I vibrated again when I thought I was extinct and a spectator to a life I was already looking forward to ending.

I came home this evening, I was well, I talked a lot to Thomas. It was as if the word came back more easily. As if there was an interest.

I vibrated again granny. The stars were aligned, the planets were aligned, the energies were good I don't know what to tell you... but I didn't want this day to end. And I'm already looking forward to tomorrow. I'm breathing a little better grandma. I'll sleep better tonight too. It's nothing and I'm afraid it's as fleeting as a forgotten dream in the morning. So I'll hang on, Grandma. I'm going to hang on to the branches, climb to the top and not let go of anything so that it's more than just a passing thing. Because today grandma, I vibrated.