Hard mental day

Hi, guys!

Last night, my head completely gave out. I barely slept at all, and when I did, I had nightmares and woke up screaming. It was sheer terror. I have to finish three videos today, one way or another. I don't know how, but I'll do it. Afterward, I'll probably lie down and take a few pills so I can get a little sleep. I'll ask my husband to give me a shot.

The maid is coming today, but I think she'll understand my situation. She knows I have a severe mental disorder, so I don't think my condition will raise any questions. People really understand everything. So if I just lie there, I think it'll be acceptable.

But no one canceled the shoot, so I'll have to push myself a little. But there are only three videos, and they're all pretty interesting. I plan to film everything quickly, stage it nicely, and post it right away. I hope the views will immediately go up. My videos started doing well yesterday, so I'm really hoping it'll be the same today.

I've changed my filming strategy a bit, and it seems to be paying off. Of course, I'm not thinking clearly right now, but I think it'll all work out. After all, I have some really interesting projects in the works: a book about a mental hospital and two toy unboxings. I'm planning to film the toys using a new method and see what happens.

Yesterday's change in strategy yielded good results, so I'm hoping it will be the same today. I definitely need to read more, but that's only if I have the energy.

In fact, I'm at risk of ending up in the hospital now, so I need to calm my psyche down. So, today is a healing day.

Have a great day, everyone!