Time heals.

Joy doesn't really come in the morning, it comes anytime. Yes i mean what i am saying, life doesn't always give that chance to be constantly happy i am literally tired of being sad.

The last picture i took with him during my last vist home. I never expected it to be the last.

You know what's worst? Sometimes i feel i am taking the whole living a life too serious that i even forget to celebrate little wins, i am becoming so unconscious of most things. I wasn't like this.

People say time heals the wound of lossing a loved one but why haven't i heal yet?
The death of my Dad leave me with so much pain that each time i remember my heart aches so much.

Life didn't give me any chance to prove how much i loved him, life didn't give him
chance to enjoy at least a little of his labour.

He played an important role in my life, the things he taught made me better and who i am today.
Now i am left with just his name, i can't even consult him to make important decisions in ny life again.

How do i say Good bye to some who was there for me from the day i was conceived? How do i say Goodbye to the one person i know and called father, to someone whose name i still bear?

This is just a little i can bring myself to write, i have a lot to talk about this special person whose dismissal i haven't heal from. And yet they say time heals.