2 weeks into no cigar/alcohol/porn

They say you shouldn't ever tell your plans to the devil or he will do his best to foil them, but they also say it's good to celebrate achievements, so I'll go with the latter.

Honestly, it has been very difficult to let go of these shelters that have allowed me to numb out my mind whenever things get dense. It doesn't feel like I'm winning anything from it either, it's not bringing absolutely any rewards, and life is just generally painful. However,there is a slight sense of achievement growing slowly and steadily within me.

So why do it? Because I'm curious to what happens after 90 days of this practice and have faith a new and better version of me will be born by then. And if nothing happens, then we'll see if there are any positive conclusions by then, but I know that the only way to get there is by staying on track.

I did drink one can of beer the other day because I ended up by accident at a very boring party, and a lady offered so nicely I couldn't say no. But when offered more, I refused. Also I haven't smoked tobacco but did consume through rape which is a medicine from the Amazon jungle which includes tobacco and other herbs. But only one day, then I figured I shouldn't accept any more because I see people getting very addicted to it as well.