I'm trying

I'm trying, I've never tried harder in my life... but I can't. Why can't I? Why is it so hard? all I do is try but I'm alone. I'm always alone... but I'm trying. Don't tell me to try harder because I can't... I just can't. It doesn't mean that you can, then I can. SO STOP TELLING ME TO TRY HARDER. Why can't someone try with me? I just want to give up. I just want to stop and accept failure. The cold air that is pain is the only warmth I've ever known, It's taken over and I can no longer move, I can no longer breathe... but I'm trying...