Everything happens for a reason…

I truly believe that.

This morning when I awoke, the sky was grey. I thought to my self, it’s a good time for me to go for a run.

After my jog, I showered and I did my meditation. While I was meditating, although my eyes were closed, I could tell from the light that was entering my quiet room, that the sun was able to peek through the clouds. That made me think about my current situation. I am unemployed, our business is not doing great at all and I had a job here but I quit after one week due to the anxiety and negative environment that was surrounding me.

Just like the sun was able to come through the clouds on a dark day, so will I. I will rise above this situation.

First let me clear the situation with my job because I have been unable to let go. In my first week of training, by Wednesday afternoon I was already feeling so much pressure from the owner that I felt like the expectations of me were unreasonable. I felt like my questions were a nuisance , I felt like I was already supposed to fix all of the issues at the office since there was no office manager for the past few months.

I felt anxiety and uneasy being at the office. My head was spinning. This has never happened to me. I had stable jobs prior to this and never been through such intense negative feelings in the first week on the job.

I am always eager to learn, excited for assimilating new things and an open person.

So, I quit my job and now I have to start all over again. I tell my self everyday that I have made the right decision. I know I made the right decision because I am at peace with not being in that environment.

Now, it’s back to the drawing board.

Secondly, I’ll stick to my story that “everything happens for a reason”. This whole experience with moving to another state, with giving our business a try, I find that its a great way to grow. I haven’t lost, I’ve only gained experience and desire to be better as a person , as a professional and as a business owner.

I will continue to seek to better my self and find peace and balance. I know it’s possible and I know we will achieve it because I had it before. The second time around it’s going to be even better.

What are your current troubles? Let’s talk.

Namaste,

D