Do As I Say Not As I do!

It's my first time making use of the rant community. I think I should have used it more often to improve my mental health and get the stress off the chest.

Here's my issue that has been pending for years and I am getting old mid aged guy without ever finding solutions for those things. So what's with the title and the rant? Let's talk.

I'll beak rules, You Can't!

The thing with the variety of the rules that are out is that people want you to follow rules but they are not going to follow them on their own. Some of the rules would make the life easier and they are made for a reason. But some people just want to break the rules and have their way around.

I decided to follow the people and managed to go ahead with same mistakes. And whenever I break traffic rule or any form of rule. I get literally the negativity chased down be it through the authority or through the people who manage to catch me lol. Though I am not criminal but small rules are only meant to be broken by bully people.

I will manipulate you, torture you, don't say a word

Those who follow me know that I have abusive family. Be it father, sisters and mother, they tend to abuse me and use me for the financial gains. And they have this logic, that I am not supposed to say in the open. I am not supposed to call the authorities. And also I am supposed to keep my mouth shut.

But last year I just had enough and I vented out to my relatives and the people around. And I was close to giving up on life. By some gods grace after that incident the family has reduced it's damage on me and kind of is limiting their torture. And they seem to be damaging me in their own way but a bit little.

If you let people walk over you, they are going to walk. And they will use you and damage you as they see it easy. I was more damaged by my own blood and it just is not ending. I wish my stay on this planet is short that I don't have to suffer more and live in false hope.