HOPE AGAINST HOPE

I had so many thoughts running through my head as I paced up and down the hospital reception waiting for the doctor to tell me how my friend's surgery went. The surgery was the only hope I had seeing her alive again but I guess life was not dancing to my tune.

I gripped in fear as the doctor announced to me a more complicated issue encountered during the course of the surgery.

I collapsed to the floor crying, while the nurses rushed to get me up. I finally stood up after much effort , but you won't blame me. My friend is all I have,she has always being with me, we practically grew up together, watch each other grow , do life together. You know those kind of friendship that cannot be regarded as being friends again but soul mate.
I left the hospital with an heavy heart.

On my way home, I started thinking of how to raise ten million naira for the completion of her surgery and basically, we both don't worth up to one million. We were only working to feed and afford basic life necessities.

After much thoughts , I suddenly remembered I had several choices to fall back too . This lightened my mood a bit and I began rejoicing. I then began analyzing my choice to see which one goes best.
Firstly, I had the choice of accepting a deceit proposal deal from a well known multimillionaire guy to show off to his family and parents for a day visit. A day , I thought isn't bad to save m friend and myself from poverty.
My second choice was worse, it had to do with taking money from the company account I worked for without a trace since I work as an accountant, this should be easy I thought.
Then , my last option was to borrow money from several people and loan apps , which I know I can't afford to pay back . So I eliminated the thought and was left with my first and second option.
After much thought, I discided to go for the first option, a day visit isn't bad after all.

I agreed with the first option, but things didn't go well as planned and the whole secret was out which left a dent on my reputation since I was dealing with powerful people in the society.I lost my job and can't even apply for new ones, can't walk freely on the street as I was tagged "a manipulator, deceiver and thief".

I felt so bad and got fixed at a point even though my friends surgery was successful.
I saved her life, but mine was lost in the process. Then I asked myself, if this was just a desperate act of help or love ...
If you were in my shoe what would you have done ?
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