I Lost You, and I Know Why. - caelum1infernum

I have no idea what Im doing,
Not even sure letting you go is the right thing to do,
We never had problems,
I created the problem.

Long distance is not my thing,
Never had never will,
I'm sure I'm making a mistake,
A big one for sure.

Seems like I am no different,
From my own father,
The only difference is,
I am honest about my mistake.

Mistake? I don't think it's a mistake,
I chose this,
I chose this mistake,
My own doing.

I thought this is it,
This is the one,
Everyone was happy with you,
Including me,

Distance,
Distance is my worst enemy,
I wish I never left,
But If I never left,
I'm stuck in the same cycle of poverty,

Life I never understand,
How life can be so difficult,
I push and I push,
What do I get?

Nothing,
I hope death is the same,
Quiet,
Unanswered.

Picture made with chatgpt poem written by myself.