New year's thoughts

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This past year has been one of the hardest for me. I managed to get seriously ill, go into hospital and survive this insidious virus. I lost my job and for 3 months I had to survive very hard, but thanks to my friends I made it. I didn't want to be dependent on my parents again, so I tried to manage on my own.

So many things happened this 2021 that I feel the need to pour out all the emotion gathered in me.

I have collected anger and suffering more than ever. I need to pour out my pain.

Maybe the worst thing or the best thing I can't define happened to me this year is that I was left alone. For a year and a half, I was in a relationship with a man that I relied on, trusted, and was willing to do anything for - turns out he wasn't for me. Shortly after we broke up I got sick, maybe from grief, maybe I had a cold but I managed to catch the insidious virus...

This year I had to deal with a lot of paperwork to help a friend I met at work and we really hit it off. I wanted to help her because she couldn't get her status because she didn't understand the language well. It was difficult because we both don't get along very well - we use a translator from time to time.

I had to change where I live because shortly after I was discharged from the hospital they raised the rent and I couldn't survive the next few months on the money I had saved. And without a job and without a place to live it's hard. I almost slept 2 nights under the open sky...

My brother gave me the best news of the year - I'm going to be an aunt in May - so it's not all bad things that have happened to me there's at least one positive.

It wouldn't have been easy, but I managed to cope, I wish in the new year I can take myself in my arms even more and be able to prepare an amazing gift for the new member of my brother's family.