From seeking respect, to self-respect

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider myself a ‘failure’ based on my not knowing answers/things despite believing I should know more or all the answers because of my longer experience with something compared to another who is new/newer to the experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to alter my voice tone, and alter my ‘confidence’ whereas I put on this ‘relaxed’ and even a ‘know it all’ type of voice with backchat and the desire to exist as “This is just a piece of cake, simple, so I’ll show and prove this to others with my laid back and relaxed voice and demeanor so that they ‘respect’ me more.”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire ‘respect’ from another and others and believe I can get that through ‘knowing things’ and in my belief, being ‘one of the best’ at this experience.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to respect myself whereas I respect myself through understanding, seeing, realising my attributes, my pros, my cons, as reality, as realistic, as physical, that is true respect because it is simply how I exist in that moment, whereas I can respect what I must work on, I can respect what I don’t know, I can also respect what I do know - and ultimately I can respect myself the MOST from not steering off my REALISTIC path to try to prove a point or garner respect from another, that is but DISRESPECTING myself and instead trying to seek out respect from another due to my self-disrespect, hate, anger, resentment, frustration towards myself that covers many points and patterns regarding self-image and self generally.

When and as I see myself failing to respect myself, I stop and breathe. I realise that if I am seeking out respect from others to feel respected, then I have no respect for myself and I am not being satisfied, real, understanding, and loving of myself as life.

I commit myself to respect myself through appreciating my existence as my pros, cons, accepting me as I am, locating my faults to improve on them, acknowledging my pros.

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