A Daily Dose: I'm proud of you!

I want to know how does it feel to be out of misery? I guess that's what my heart desires. I've been living alone in the dark for years. And I still believe that I can pull myself out of this mess.

I don't think that is impossible. And although it seems so hard to do, I know one day I'll be free. Don't you think it's brave to believe in that? I know not everyone sees it that way.

Others take it as a foolish thing to do. And it makes me sad, but I can't do anything about it. We are entitled to our own opinions. We cannot decide what others should do.

I knew it would become like this, so I ignored everything around me. I taught myself how to get used to it. And I may look selfish, but it was what saved me. I didn't have to fall deeper.

If you live in loneliness, it's easy to fall deeper. And it would be harder to free yourself by then. You will be chained by your past and live a miserable life. And I don't wish to see myself like that.

Although I'm such a failure, I still have dreams. I still have things I want for myself. And those desires are precious to me. It proves that I am still me.

I cling to that hope. And I don't want to doubt myself ever again. I don't want to lose anything left for me. I can't imagine what will I be without them.

It is what keeps me going. No matter how my surroundings turn black, I have a spec of light left in me. It lights up my little hope. And with it, I promise to free myself from this misery.