greenmonster Tag Posts Index

Rest. The New Beginning

Who knew that starting a new chapter, was so hard to explain. The moment I tried writing about that experience, my life made me start anew in a very different meaning.

Meditation, Introspection, Reflection

We are almost at the end of chapter one. Originally this work “Meditation” was part of the breakup arc. It was somewhere after “Lost Time” and before “They don’t

Steps to Freedom

I feel like I'm milking this situation, but I also feel like there are some things that are unsaid still. I will give full and raw account of everything that happened

They Don't Fit

I’m incredibly lucky for what happened to me. Im lucky to have the breakup that I did. And the healing that i went through. I also have a bit of an irregular story

Support Systems

My third stage of getting over the break up, was support systems. After the moment of some numbness and looking at my feelings from afar, I started to feel them

Lost Time

Those few days of adjustments, were confusing. After the sadness and anger, came a time of silence. The time of quiet cries into the pillow, and a very mellow time.

Thrown Away, Heartbroken and Angry

So here I was. Finally back into my perpetual summer. Finally back to the place that i so passionately tried to escape. I just returned Home. Broken Hearted. To

Freeze. Winter Hell

Im originally from the Northern hemisphere, the place that changes seasons and has too many timezones. I spent large part of my growing up years in Moscow, Russia.

Wallowing. Black Hole of Time.

Entangled gave me a breath of fresh air. I realised that the monster can be my medium, my tool, my way to tell my story. So i let him be. I let him come to me in

Entangled, Realisation of the Force

I had to take a small mental break between writing previous post and this one. Even though you wouldn’t know the difference as this comes out weekly. The need for

Green Monster 0,5 "Happy Place"

We finally arrived. 3,5 years after the birth, Green Monster came to me again. This time my life was different. I was no longer in school, i was in university. In