Hello how are you?

I have been drawing with traditional materials and that only means one thing, beyond the fact that I want to learn, it is that I simply don't have much electricity, that stinks a lot, but well I can't do anything about it no matter how hard I try. Dec has started and Christmas is on my PC, it looks like a little tree. I won't even write a DM to Santa to get a new UPS so my PC doesn't suffer, I'm sure I'll behave very badly this year😑🤐

Have you had the feeling of sadness, perhaps helplessness, of having wanted and desired, worked for something for so long, so long and when can that finally be possible? And unfortunately, life slaps you a couple of times and tells you "you don't get on this train, you better keep trying" sooooo you can't make it happen. You feel with your hands tied, defeated, tired, just a spectator without being able to do anything, is it fair? I don't know! It depends on how you look at it, but I do know it feels ugly. To do everything for nothing, but there is a consolation prize "it's there just, just! work harder to have it one day that's still not enough".

At least it's there, it's progress, maybe or a misfortune to make me feel worse.

Well, in short, that's my life every day.
Nothing is a surprise anymore, "it's normal!" I just have to hold on! But what, when I can't do it anymore? continue ! and almost on the precipice, well yes! continueeeeeee

Today I did something with graphite, not with charcoal, well in fact I wanted to try with both materials but I didn't like it so I erased it and only the graphite was left. I have some images of the process

To finish this drawing, I wanted to fill the entire background with black using charcoal, and yes it looked very dark but then I realized that no, as it was before it was better, so all that was left was to erase and erase, after taking the photo and Taking it to PS I added a color base, but I didn't want something so saturated either, I just wanted it to look old, and the texture it has is good for that.