Endings and Beginnings: Bye 2022, Hello 2023

It's been my tradition to make an end-of-the-year post as we close out 2022 and enter 2023, I have so much on my heart and mind.
Essentially the life that I had is gone and I have the task of creating a new one that I want, but that's so much more than a sentence can capture. It's dramatic sounding because it is dramatic. It feels scary, sad, heartbreaking, and complicated, and brings grief, fear, and self-doubts, but it also brings opportunity, new chapters, changes, and yes the potential for adventures, new experiences, healing, and faith in myself and others.

2022 was extremely difficult, heartbreaking, and even traumatic, but also in many other ways - beautiful. Time with family, deep conversations, bonding, quiet and loud support from others, rekindled friendships, and the knowledge that most of the people I know and surround myself with are kind, loving, and giving, full of compassion and amazing. I am proud of that.
I'm so thankful for all the support we received in 2022 and even the short messages of "I'm here for you if you need it". I was hyper-focused on Joe and our family, but I can't tell you how much those messages meant even when I didn't feel like I had the time/heart to reach out.

As I try to figure out 2023, I hope to utilize those friendships, and family relationships and fill the huge void that Joe's passing has left.

While I am sad and fearful, I am also hopeful and willing to see what 2023 has in store. It's time to head into an uncertain New Year, and show up one day at a time to see what it brings. Happiness is a choice and I expect to find it at some point.

Wishing a Happy New Year to all of you. I wish that the year ahead gives us many more opportunities to create many more memories with each other. Never know maybe 2023 is the Year of Hive!
Cheers!

@whatsup