Bow and arrow

A crossbow... it's long ago I used one and at that time I intended to save for my own. The arrows used are registered which means you are and you can be found by such a small item like an arrow if you are not taken it back. Imagine you cannot find it or it's stuck at a place or in someone and you cannot find it or someone uses your arrows.
It never came that far I bought my own. Always other expenses came in between and so did my bad health. I ended in someone who hardly could lift a spoon and if you can not lift a spoon you cannot use a crossbow.
The crossbow and arrows and those bad days if it comes to my health, the lost of my health and strength... it all seems like such a long time ago. I try to remember what I did with my life, how I spent the days, the hours. It feels kind of weird how much I forgot about so many parts in my life and on the other hand remember all those little details others forgot. What made my brain forget so much, decide to delete parts, moments of my life that would have done me good today?

The prompt 'now and arrow' is provided by @mariannewest