My Stupid Job - A Rant

I don't get it, I don't get it, I don't GET IT!!

I am absolutely sick of my predicament. I'm currently stuck in limbo land.

I am on long term sick from work and I don't know what to do.

I was overworked and my boss treated me pretty badly, so badly I ended up with anxiety and depression from the stress.

People say it's a shame that I am not a member of a union or something...

But it's ridiculous! I just think the whole thing is an absolute farce!

Why should I have to fight in order to be treated with respect in a basic admin job?

I just want to exchange my time and labor for a reliable pay check, ffs, but I appear to be asking too much...

I'm not a bad employee, I am punctual, helpful and my colleagues like me as a person.

I feel bad about not being in work to help the colleagues I do actually like... but I'm just not well enough right now.

I'm trying to look for a new job but it's hard with all the anxiety and depression getting in the way.

Oh, and existential crisis bonus points cause I don't even know why I have to go through all this...

I am single, I have no dependents, I don't care for materialistic trappings.

Why am I torturing myself just to make money in order to survive and prolong my torture?

So that I can retire when I am too old to enjoy my life?

If someone could please provide me with an epiphany, I would be most appreciative.