Into the unknown

The future has always been pretty scary to me, with fear of the unknown and excitement of our hope. When I saw this prompt, I was seriously thinking about everything and anything that excited me about the future and one thing stuck out.

Image belongs to me.
An old picture of me, 4 years ago.

Success. I'm a bit of a perfectionist and, when I'm not winning in life or things aren't going as I plan, I'm constantly losing my mind, although with time I've learnt to be more hopeful and accepting of little problems, I've also become more positive towards my future. An example is, me getting a rejection mail, old me would have lost her mind and gone into a mini depression episode but no. I'm more positive than usual and its just more proof of what the future holds.

A current picture of me.

I believe that these days, I'm pursuing success. I feel more inclined to get up when I fall than let the failure hold me down for too long. I'm excited because I believe the future holds a smarter, better, more experienced me. And that even if I don't get to success at the time I plan, I would have gathered more knowledge over the years to be able to get there.

This aside, they're some aspects of the future that scares me, like losing people I care about. As I grow older, I've noticed that so much can go wrong, in a second, minute, hour and even day. I've formed an attachment to the tiny friend group I've now. And I would hate that all to go away because of an unforeseen change in our future.

A picture of some of my friends. Three years ago

If anything scares me most in my future, it would be losing people you started with because like it or not, friendship breakups are the absolute worst, they leave an aching that is very hard to heal.

All images belong to me.
A picture we took last year.

Well, that's it from me, fellas. Signing off, your favourite bibliophile.