Please try to trust me once!

Hi everyone,
How about you today? It's a bad day with me today.
It's the first time i heard this song for 10 years ago when I grade 8, my feeling in this time so awful and terrible!
Today, I listen this song again, and the feeling not change, still awful. It's hard to say my feel, have many emotion in me: sad, disappointed, boring... It's so bad when you not to be trusted from your relatives!
I only want to say: "Please try to trust me once".
Linkin Park always a music band have song match with my feeling.

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
....
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
....
Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
By becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know I may end up failing too
But I know you were just like me with someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be.

you can hear the song in this link: Numb - Linkin Park

@rachelssi