I hate myself when I'm angry

Welcome to my blog i wish each and everyone the best today. Today i will be talking about what i want to let go of myself which is anger as i get angry easily. Getting angry is just a step away to get into danger and yes no body is perfect, we all have flaws I'm a good person which I'm always trying to be better day by day but then this anger issues is something i really want to get ride off 😢.

I remember back then if my little sister did something wrong for me i will end up beating her sometimes i shout at her which at the end of the day i regret doing. Althou i don't keep malice and i love saying what on my mind. Anytime I'm with my peers and if have issues i don't like the fact that i get angry easily, sometimes i just want to leg go of the issues but then if I'm not saying it out i don't think i will get myself.

There was a day last year i regretted my anger so much, here is what happened i and my best friend went to a store to get some goods before going he already delayed me which I'm already trying to control that , so we got to the store we are going and i bought a new phone on that day he also bought somethings he needed, after i had payed for the phone i got from the store , my friend ask me to give it to him so he can check it , of course he's my best friend so i handed the phone to him but to cut the long story short the phone fell out of his hand, a new phone i meant and the phone face got cracked because of the hard ground and the way the phone landed on the floor , honestly i was so mad 😡 on that day the store that i had to slap my best friend because i so much angry 😡. Wow i never believe i can slap my best friend because of a phone althou i saved so much for the phone but then i should not have slap my friend because of ordinary phone 📱. I regretted day day so very much that i could not forgive myself 😢. Althou i later begged my best friend and he forget and forgive me about my stupid actions . But slapping my best friend in a public store because i was angry is something i hate my self doing.

Althou i am changing small small about this anger issues but then i really want to be able to control my anger because as i said earlier anger is a step away from danger. I wish i can control this bad 😞 habit of mine. I know growing up and learning day by day i will definitely handle this so called anger and of course it has reduced than before but i want to work more and more on it.

Well I've said alot about myself that i really want to let go of, but haven't been able to let go and with my explanation we should know the effects it has had on me, i want to let it go but sometimes some people pissed you off and some people enjoy it so i could not help than to get mad at them anytime i was pissed off. With the view things i wrote i hope I'm able to answer the first question asked by @galenkp the weekend engagement, you can get the details HERE

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