I Must Not Fade

Sleep!

Why am I awake right now? Why do I want to run? Why do I want to fight? Why!!! These questions kept popping in me. Am I really happy? Have I gotten there? Many people called me crazy. Many people called me a person without focus.

Dreams!

I have been part of their dreams... I have been part of their achievement... Painfully, I forgot mine and it really hurts. This is where I have made a mistake.

Battles!

My battle can't be fought by them, I have to fight it by myself...
I have to go through it myself.
I have to break these barriers.
I have to set boundaries.
I have to plan my days..
I have to create a working principle and I must not fade. I must try to survive. Fight through when it is hard.

I think this is not a bad guess or it is.

Boundaries!!!

When I didn't set boundaries, people tried to use me cheaply for their own aim and goals. They borrowed my time, my strength, and returned nothing but "God bless you".

Failure!!!

When I didn't plan, I failed woefully. I showed up at school without fees, at hospital without hope, at market without list. Hustle without direction is just running in circles.

Barriers!!!

When I didn't break barriers, these same barriers broke me. ASUU strike broke my calendar. Accident broke my leg. Fear broke my sleep. But I’m learning: if the barrier won’t move, I must become the one who climbs.

Recovery!!!

Brother Ojo, my nurse, didn’t fight my pain for me. He taught me how to use crutches. He said “kick me if you must, but stand up tomorrow”. That’s boundaries. That’s a plan. That’s breaking barriers.

So tonight, I’m awake because my future is knocking. And I’m not running away this time. I’m running toward it.

I have been part of their story. Now I must be the author of my own.

Good night everyone, this is what I have for the daily prompt today.

Bye!