olga personal~~loneliness

Here she is again, she chases me, she seeks me among the people, she waits for me anywhere, as if waiting for my sadness, she clouds my thoughts, she corners me and does not let me breathe, she remembers me at every moment that only she is my companion. My loneliness - 'I do not want you near me, you remind me of what is no longer there, all my emptiness, the nostalgia of the lived times drowns me. my tears come out, I try to contain them, but she spills them-my loneliness, incessantly strikes all the spaces of my being ... so I spend my day, waiting for a company, to help me and caress me and not only feel my loneliness . the night comes, the melancholy accompanies me, I fall asleep between sobs. But when I let it up, it has let me rest.

I wake up alone in my bed, I look for her among the pillows, I do not see her ... I get impatient ... she got tired of waiting for me .. I encourage her absence, if she comes back, I will close the door .. I look for company and loneliness .. I close the door..