I am alive

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I had had a very challenging weekend. Unexpected things had been happening which left me feeling resentful, upset and stressed. I was so unhappy for the past 2 days.

It made me feel more frustrated and upset that I am feeling all these: denial, anger, frustration, confusion, ambivalence in me.

But for the past hour, I just let go of everything that I feel in and out of me. I forgave me for failing to be more compassionate, kind and understanding toward me. My breath reminded me that I am alive. Made of flesh and blood.

Those emotions does not necessarily define who and what I am at the long term but whatever I am feeling in that moment, in that situation.

I figured out that if I cannot find empathy, compassion, love, kindness in others, I will not wait for it in vain. I am still here.In small simple things like recognizing that these are all valid emotions, I am validating that I am indeed alive, breathing, interacting with my world.

I am afterall a human. These are not my shortcomings but simply a part of who and what I am.