Why isn’t it easy for me ?

As some of you may know from my previous blogs on here , I’ve been pretty heartbroken lately. It seems that another user on here has been going thru some similar situations as myself as well. ( @anonymity5). Why is it that we let other people get into our minds ? Why do we allow them to have a place in our hearts, when they have no intention to stay? When they leave , why are we so heartbroken ?

Why can’t we turn our emotions and feeling off like they can ? Why do we let them have power over our emotions and actions ? Why can’t we just say f@ck ‘em and move on? Why do we care so much?

I don’t love easily, but when I do , I love wholeheartedly. I guess others aren’t like that. I mean he already moved on. If you truly love someone , how do you move on so quickly?

If it’s your life situation that won’t allow us to be together , how do you decide that overnight ? How do you move on to someone new overnight? How do you forget about me so quickly?

I truly believe some people are just never meant to have anyone in their lives. Maybe that’s my destiny. Maybe I’m destined to be alone. I miss him tho. And it hurts to think he doesn’t care . It hurts to think he doesn’t think about me.

I’m starting to get over it. I’m starting to get over the pain. It’s not easy. I keep myself distracted and busy, but every once in a while a song comes on the radio and I start crying. I see a couple holding hands and I feel the pain all over again.

Why can’t I be like him? Why can’t I be over it? I got can’t I move on so easily?

I miss his touch. I miss his kisses. I miss his love ( or at least what I thought was his love ) I want to be in his arms again. I really loved him, but I can’t help but think he never really loved me back !