If I don't write again, it means something terrible happened

Got a reply that I would be deported back to my country of origin if I withdraw my asylum application. I replied it is not safe, asked if I can choose my destination and asked for official documents about the matter.

More than one year here, I still don't have proper information on many things, on most things perhaps.

I will try to leave legally. I will write at least twice more. One before departing and one when I arrive somewhere safe. If I don't, it means something terrible happened.

If that's the case, I hope this post does reach some real persons. And hope that you will find out what happened. By reading continue reading this and this.

I emphasise legally because they made a lot indirect suggestions, more than a hundred times, about going to another country while withholding my passport.

In fact, many things I wrote in the entries were out of fear that I could be framed for something. I used to write precaution letters to the authority here, I thought it was the influence of the Chinese Communist Party. It probably was, and still is, but the authority here is facilitating it.

A large part of what I am experiencing here seem to mean to let them satisfy themselves by harassing, humilating and insulting me, with the help of power abuse.

They are also constantly collecting my image, voice and forcing me to write by requiring an "application" for almost everything, sometimes even a simple question. And when I wrote, there was no reply, too. And they don’t admit the surveillance and recording.

Writing these might gain me some extra harm. But not writing it won't go anywhere either. If being nice helps nothing of what I wrote should have happened. If I remain silent they don't feel a problem of what they are doing; if I don't they think that I should be thankful that they haven't done worse.

That mentality is probably a big part of Lucifer Effect.

Find "Surveillance_and_Cultral_Revolution_n.txt" in [this GitHub. From what I see it correctly describes the mentality of many here.

That, "AuthoritarianMethods.txt" and "PettyManagement.txt" should encapsulate the essence of much of what is happening, from my point of view. The exact reason why they are so awful is a question only they can answer.