[WE 137] My unrequited first love

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My first and last crush happened when I was in secondary School and that was the last time I had crush on someone. All my friends then have a boyfriend but me, I'm doing holy holy and I set a goal of not having a boyfriend till I finish my secondary school because I want to put my education first.

Well, I don't know how it happens,but all I know is that I started liking someone, I always want to see him, anytime I heard his voice, I will rushed out just to see his face and is no one other than my friend's brother. Anytime we are together, if he say something I will always laugh even when what he said is not funny. At first, I don't know what it was because I've never felt like that before and I don't want to tell anybody because I don't want them to laugh at me.

I know I was crushing on him while reading a novel, and I was hoping for him to notice me too but he never notice me and I was looking for a way for him to notice me still no result, so I decided to make the move one day and I wrote him a letter. I wrote a letter truly but I don't have the courage to give him the letter. I wanted to give my friend to help me give it to him but I later decided against it.

After contemplating on what to do for days, I went to their house and put the letter in his room and left. That same evening, I discovered he was dating one of my friends and I was praying for him not to see the letter I put in his room and I rushed back to take the letter and decided to stop loving him or crushing on him.

It took me a while before I was able to stop crushing on him and since then, I decide never to have a crush on anyone again because it is useless if the person doesn't feel the same way about you. I met him after four years of separation and that was when he was telling me that he knows that I like him then and asked if I still like him but I was over him and their is no feeling left because I end it long time ago. That is how I deal with my unrequited first love.

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