How I Feel?

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I feel I can't fly, because even if I do, I will be flying alone. I feel like a coward that will never stop fine tuning the words I say until my family has come to ruin.

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I feel like an anger has taken over me that I can't control, because I'm hurt by my own loved ones, my family. Because of this, I feel lonely with my own family, but yet empty without them.

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I feel like I'm running out of time, it's as if my family and my friends are drawing further and further away from me, mostly because I failed in earning cash.

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I feel like I'm moving away from God, because the more eager I get in making money, the more my love for God is proven to be weak. The pressure I get from my family to make money is more than the pressure I get from them to stay steadfast with God.

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I have always been taught about how important it is to serve God with all our hearts, but when all our hearts are filled with tactics to make money, what room do we have for God in our hearts?

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Today, I stand to be corrected if I've followed the wrong path or encouraged if I've followed the best path.

For the wise will always cling to understanding.

Well in my case I have followed the path to make money, although I know that I can strike a balance between making money and serving God, I have learnt that trying to do so is only going to land me in a position where I have little or no money.

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I feel like I can share this with you, because you are the only one I can talk to right now and the only one that can learn from my mistakes.

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You must know how it feels like when you are not following your passion in pursuit for money, but when your passion is to eradicate money, then why do you pursue after it?

Don't worry, wisdom won't harm me

What I'm I saying? I hope someone understands even the slightest bit of what I'm saying, because I don't know if I'm going to say these things again when my life's good. I hope someone listens to how I feel now.