INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS WON

tried eating siomai with ofc. Its chilli sauce.. Then later my whole body is aching 😆 but i can still tolerate the pain,

tried drinking 1 bottle of beer since lolo gave it to me..

I know its bawal to me but i decided to kinda break the bawal, curiousity of what will happen won of course.. And guess what.. I haven't even finished the beer but my whole body is aching 3x of what i felt earlier from eating siomai..

Numb arm, feet, painful in walking.. Hahaha

Thoughts right now?

Yep.. time to cleanse by drinking lots of water.. And medicine.. And back to disciplining self again..

I know stupid of me to try, but my intrusive thoughts won.. Hahaha

Sad I can't eat nor drink what i used to love..

But its fine ~

Kinda feel bad for my kidney tho.. But thats on me ~

Mind finishing the beer for me? 😆

Good evening...