KNOWING MY WORTH

When it comes to accepting change, even as a minimalist I struggle so much with it but then the thing is, I always crave for a transformation. I know that I’m not exactly doing well in different areas of my life and daily, I actually do see the need for a transformation. But how much effort do I put into this? I don’t think I put in enough effort towards the transformation that I seek. Back in 2021, I was in a relationship with this person, he loved me and I think I loved him too but at some point there was a great shift in things we both believed and accepted. At that point, I struggled with a lot of emotional baggage and I knew it was time to let go.

My life was going to take a new turn and even though I know it will be hard at first, I still took that bold step to opt in for a transformation and it was only a matter of time and I was glad I did. Most times, I struggle with my transformations because it often brings be pain at first but then I remember gold and how it is made into something that beautiful and I just accept the fact that whenever there is a need for me to change anything, it is only going to build me, make me stronger and beautiful but it sometimes comes with pain.

If there is one thing I believe needs transformation in my life, it will be learning to know my worth. I’ll be vulnerable here and say things as it is. All my life, I have always felt awkward whenever people say good things about me or praise me for doing something well (I was quite a minimalist in this regard). I somehow always preferred they don’t. But then, I have come to realize that it shouldn’t make me feel that way at all. Instead I should be grateful and keep being myself and doing well in the things I engage with. One reason I have come to understand why I’m like that is because I’m scared of me over relying on people’s validation.

It’s a good reason and that is why I struggle but then, I have also come to see that it is affecting the way I see myself too. I need a transformed mind. I need to acknowledge that I have done well and know just how much I worth. Someone once said that we will be valued based on how we value ourselves. I have been doing better but I always see myself running back to my rabbit hole even without knowing it. At this point, it’s a bit somehow that I have people that know my worth more than I do and I want that to change.

I don’t know if anyone can relate with this but it will be helpful to get your advise on how you were able to make a transformation for yourself because right now, I’m still yet to know how to make mine. But I do know that I need a renewed mindset towards receiving compliments and also knowing my worth as a person.

This is my entry to the transformational Thursday. Thank you for reading through. ❤️