A Time when I played with my instincts..

Hello guys, good day all.
‎As a human, they are times when I will want to do somethings on my own without the help of anybody and if I succeed, I boost about it, then I tell people I know how that stuff works without any teachers guild, and it I fail it's a lesson to be leant. Am a victim of that, I engage into some dangerous things or visit dangerous places and still accomplish my mission before going out. But am always careful when going to places or doing something people think is dangerous.
‎i love taking risk because they are much lessons I learn when I fail and when I succeed after taking a risk.
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‎i have failed many times trying to follow the same voice that make me win many times and it's like I don't really know when the voice is real or trying to place tricks with me.
‎i could remember when I was a mini forex trader, I loved trading, but I don't know how to.
‎i was added in a telegram group (quotex singal bot) by my uncle, they drop about 100 signals a day.
‎it has a one minute trading signal and a five minute trading signal, so you Choose where to be. At first I went to the one minute trading group, as a mini trader, I made about $0.70 or $0.80 per win, I don't stake much tho.
One day after some successful trade, we began to face a great lost and I lost all money, but I didn't stop there. I deposited again and we gain for sometimes and we began to lost, (wish I had a big account, I won't have noticed the lost because I will gain and my lost might just be my profits).
‎After that, I rested, at that time, I began to see win,win, and win without any loss, but I wasn't trading, it made me angry and I wanted to join again, but my brother told me not to, but I refuse to hear.

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I refunded my account and began to trade, when they are no signals, I use my instincts and I gained, it happened the first time, second and third time. I was happy and I rested for a while before trading again. this time I lost, yeah, my instincts failed me not once but multiple times. I was disappointed in myself. That was when I quite trading, because I used a bit and lost, and I also trusted my instincts and lost again. I just can't imagine my self losing and burning down my little account multiple times.
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‎so many event has happened which make me trust my instincts, but in this one, it failed me. I don't know if it was because I was anxious or over confidential.
I trust my instincts but not that much, if am very happy I don't trust my instincts, because bit will definitely fail me. But when am sad or become serious, i work with my instincts. That's when it never fails me. (I noticed this late). But I learned from it too. Learning never ends, and am a kind that love learning from my mistake and that of others.

Thank you for reading..