THE NEGATIVE

I always feel the urge to do more, but to say that I do feel like I am not doing enough is more complicated than it seems. As a matter of fact, I am neither satisfied with what I have achieved nor displeased with my achievements. Meanwhile, it would be stupid of me to dismiss the times I have beaten myself up for not having reached a certain aspiration. They might just be occasional occurrences, but they are part of my life, they are sometimes my motivation.

---

Source

---

I am doing enough. Even after having this inner dispute with myself, I eventually convince 'me' that I am doing enough. It has never been as easy as it sounds; there is always this war between the negative and positive parts of me. A war that I have never allowed the negative part win. Mind you, the negative part is neither evil nor an enemy. In its innocence and quest to tell what seems to be the truth, it also contributes to my growth. I guess there are times I feel like I am not doing enough afterall😔, but I have never failed to convince myself otherwise. Yet, I have never completely ignored the words of my negative part. And so, I always strive to do more whether or not I am doing enough.

I might be wrong, but in my opinion, we all hear that voice. The voice that tends to downcast, but that might not really be its reason for being. I prefer to refer to it as the negative, but not the evil nor the enemy. The problem only lies on understanding its reason for being. If misunderstood, one can experience the opposite effects of its intended purpose. It is alright to sometimes feel that you are not doing enough, but it is not alright to be consumed by the conviction that you are not doing enough. You must give way to the positive part and allow yourself to be convinced that you are doing more than enough. Then, you must ensure that the negative voice is never justified. Doing more, whether or not you are doing enough, is a good way to start. I guess this is where its reason for being comes into play.

Inasmuch as we must be positive at all times, negativity must not be completely ignored. It is sometimes by being negative that we tend to realise our sad reality, that is why I prefer not to consider the negative an enemy. Regardless, one must be careful never to put the negative in charge. To maintain a sound and sane mind, one must be positive. On the other hand, the sad reality that is being displayed by the negative must not be ignored. It could, in fact, become a motivation if well-channeled and approached with a positive mindset. In my opinion, this could be likened to the case of an electric cable. It is necessary for both the positive and the negative to work hand in hand, but the positive must always be more effective.

---