9/30/25

Yeah, I've been feeling really just numb and over everything lately. I can't believe it's almost October, I can't believe how much time is passing in life in general. Life's not getting much cheerier these days.

I'm not exactly sad, mad or anything. I suppose this is a good thing. There's no need to always be emotional. Sometimes it's nice to just simply exist. My mind always races so that's hard for me but yeah.

Today is an estranged friend of mine's birthday. Pretty weird. Everyone is estranged to me these days.

I took a break from binging Charlie Kirk's news for a few days. Just watched a few new ones and man this official story is looking flimsy to say the least. There's so many angles and new theories and everything. I don't know what to believe or who to trust.

There's so much deception from all angles in this strange world. A magician can pull of a trick right in front of you and you KNOW you're gonna get tricked. Imagine what type of magic can be pulled off by the rich and powerful? Sleight of hand, shifting attention, etc.

All we know in this world are visuals, experts, and word of mouth. Even with this advanced life, nobody knows anything ever. I guess we should all mind our own business but.... yeah. Life.

J.K. Rowling also ROASTED Emma Watson online and that was quite hilarious. Bravo to Rowling big time.

But yeah, all this breaking news and..... breaking news, I'm still nowhere in life hahahaha. Ugh.

Meh, in a way I feel like I'm chipping away and making progress. Mostly though, I feel my old spry, enthusiastic optimism fading more and more.

Getting old sucks and is weird. Gonna make some food, maybe watch some YouTube, maybe I'll read like I haven't been doing unfortunately. Maybe it's a chess night though. My mind feels unsettled. Hive on folks.